Hello everyone! this is my first post here
My name is Mustafa (28 years old ) and I am a new member here. i will tell you my story and i hope i can find a solution to my problem
I started learning guitar 10 years ago in private lessons with my teacher. I love guitar so much and i used to practice many hours a day. the bad situation in Iraq forced me to leave my friends and my country and coming to Turkey.In Turkey it is not legal for me to leave the tiny town that i live in , it is not a kind of punishment , it is just the rules and i have been living like that for almost 5 years.I always feel deep loneliness here but i know that i am strong and i can overcome it. The big problem is that after these years i began to lose motivation and interest in playing guitar. . I always practiced and had the idea that my teacher will be proud of me someday.I lost the contact with my teacher almost 3 years ago and this made my loneliness deeper.Two months ago i received news that the wife and the daughter of my teacher passed away in an accident . Now i can not even pick the guitar and i feel it is a waste of time, i feel that instead of spending hours practicing i should do something useful to other people.i am out of motivation and sometimes i feel that it is immoral to waste time practicing guitar for hours.I think that many people here are old and wise and i am sure that some people had obstacles in their life , i am looking forward to hear how did you manage it ..... Thank you in advance